Well thankfully the insomnia was just a one-off. I've been sleeping pretty well since then. But the side effects of the birth control have not gone unnoticed. My mood in the beginning was horrible. I was sad/angry/irritable and didn't want to interact with anyone. Some of that passed within the first week, but it hasn't all subsided. I notice myself getting weepy more easily...my joviality has disappeared...I've had bouts of depression...and I feel like this FET is doomed to failure before it's even begun. Not a fun place to be.
I did talk to the nurse about the possibility of transferring two embryos, but she talked me out of it. First of all, it only increases our odds of success by 5%. Woopdeedoo. Secondly, it increases our chances of multiples from <5% to 50-60%. UGH! AND then she had to go and tell me that she just went to a funeral for twins. Thanks. Really needed to hear that right now *eye roll*
And so I'm still in the waiting game. I started the second medication (Lupron) two days ago and so far haven't felt any different on it...whew. But don't feel any better either...sigh. Perhaps after the new cycle begins and I get some estrogen into my system I'll perk back up...and stop eating everything in sight.
My adrenals have been wonky ever since this cycle began. The small dose of hydrocortisone I was trying (5-10mg), that had helped in the previous cycle, was no longer doing the trick. So at first I increased it to 20mg, thinking I probably needed at least that much...but it proved to be too much, so now I'm trying 15mg. I haven't quite hit the sweet spot yet, but I'm working on it. I tried to get my old doctor's help with this, but he wanted to mess with my thyroid medication AGAIN...so I said screw it. I did it on my own before and I can do it on my own again. I've got enough medication side effects to deal with right now without completely changing my thyroid medication too!
I finished reading a book today called "Silent Sorority." It's about one woman's journey through infertility, which did not conclude with a happy ending (as most infertility books do). It was refreshing to hear from someone who ended up involuntarily childless, but survived. It gives me hope that even if our dreams don't come true, I will still have an existence worth cherishing. It certainly won't be easy living outside the status quo, but hey...I feel like I've been outside of that my entire life. Why should my adulthood be any different? :\
Friday, September 9, 2011
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Those BCP's are evil. And I'm glad to hear you're doing well on the Lupron so far... when I did Lupron (microdose) I was super-flighty!! It inspired this great post of mine back from February... Clueless http://singlemom2b.blogspot.com/2011/02/clueless.html Do you have a date for your FET?
LOL @ your Clueless post!! I haven't had that side effect yet, but now I won't be surprised if it comes my way :)
We don't have a date yet, but the plan is the first week of October. It still feels like ages away :(
For me bovine thyroid capsules are getting my own thyroid to start producing rather than just supplementing. I am working with my chiropractor and am getting great results.
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