And So I Wait

This song has been stuck in my head for days now...it's so apt for my present lack of patience and longing for a little one that needs me as much as I need them:



Contemplating everyday 
Wondering if I’m wasting all of my time
You know I’m dedicating
Every thought on only you

My mommy used to tell me that 
Patience is a virtue

[Chorus:]
And so I wait through the night
Cuz tomorrow you may find 
That you will need me again
For some tender love and care
And so I wait hoping you,
Will discover you’re in love
That you need me as much as I need you

And so I’ll wait all my life
Hoping one day you will see that
Love’s a lock you’re the key
You will come and rescue me
And so I wait hoping you,
Will discover you’re in love
That you need me as much as I need you

It gets frustrating time and again
But I am not complaining cuz in the end
If I just keep believing 
no matter what I’ll be with you

My mommy used to tell me that 
Patience is a virtue

I know in my head that slow and steady wins the race and that applies to IVF as well. If my follicles matured too fast the resulting eggs could be immature. And logically I'm only 10 days into this cycle, so I shouldn't be surprised that it's not trigger time yet. But my heart is leaping ahead and dying to know how this is going to turn out! It also didn't help that the doctor who checked me out two days ago said that I'd probably be ready to go in 3-4 days...when in reality it will be longer than that. Argh!

But I can take solace in the knowledge that things are going WELL! Better than well even! GREAT! My follicle count last week was 24...well two days ago it was more like 29+! These are the kinds of numbers that most women going through IVF pray for! So I am DAMN LUCKY! Now, most likely there won't be 29 eggs at retrieval time. I would guess more like 15. And not all 15 of those will be viable and fertilize, so we will probably only end up with 7 embryos. But I am not complaining - that is a really good number to work with!!

The only problem with my high number of follicles is that they will result in a very high level of estrogen...and that can lead to Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS). My nurse actually told me that if they retrieve 20+ eggs, they will immediately start me on a medication to combat OHSS (Dostinex). And in the meantime I'm increasing my electrolyte and protein intake - hoping that will ward it off as well. It's a painful and potentially serious condition, so let's hope I can avoid it! Gaining 5+ pounds of fluid in 24 hours does not sound like fun!

My ovaries are already pretty painful. The doctor said that by retrieval time, they'll be the size of grapefruits, so it's no wonder! Today I started wearing sundresses so that there's nothing squeezing my abdomen. And really, I expected to be feeling MUCH worse by this point in the game, so I don't mind at all! Every twinge of pain reminds me that my body is doing what it's supposed to be doing...so all I can be is thankful :)

Send us some positive vibes tomorrow! With any luck, we'll be going on an egg hunt by the end of this week!